Hell yeah, I am going to retake my MT, partly because I was forced to, but mainly because I am striving for a better and more presentable result befitting of my intelligence.
But I am worried; effing worried for my future.
My studies are at risk of failing if I dont reassert my self-discipline to push for the next few months to come.
My main concerns are maths, geog, physics and computer studies.
Physics and maths are linked, formula-based subjects, while geog and computer studies are memory-based subjects.
Today's oral was totally random; the theme being hairdressing.
I did pretty okay, only that I paused very sporadically during the reading and I had an awfully long pause during picture discussion.
Those were the only blemishes on my oral.
I am proud to say I kept my nerves with me, which I have not been able to do for any of my previous orals.
But damn the conversation question.
I didnt have time to think of an answer for my favourite hairstyle, and since I didnt have one, I bullshitted one out.
I made it through nonetheless.
I have no idea why I was not involved in the public apology.
Not that I am dying to have a role in it, but I feel I should at least face up to what I have done, instead of just sitting behind the class, and have others think negatively of you.
I would prefer others to say I am an ingeniuous cheater instead of a coward, who doesnt dare to step up to the podium to apologise.
But since it's over, I'll just let it be.
But I am here to clarify that it was not that I didnt have the guts to step up there and apologise, but that I was not given the chance.
How many psychotherapists does it take to change a light bulb?
One, but only if the bulb really wants to change itself.
I am changing myself for the sake of myself.
I know words are useless in promising that I will change, only to turn them into empty promises.
Hence, I will show by example, that I am adamant on changing, for nothing but the better.
I know The Dark Knight is a good show, and that the joker has left a deep impression on some ppl with his quotes.
BUT.
Can I fucking appeal to some retards to stop using his catchphrase just because it is nice?
You know what?
You wouldnt turn into the Joker just because you use his pet phrase.
Instead, you sound more like a retarded kid trying to learn words off the TV.
It not only leaves an indelible scar in ppl's memories but also make my goosebump rise as high like a rocket would.
So please, may I beseech all the retards to stop insulting the joker and to respect it instead?
It's not stopping me from falling.
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