Blank mind and a broken soul.

These past few days, I've been wanting to type out a post but I always stop short of typing anything; eventually closing the blogger tab.
I've got a thousand feelings right now, but to articulate them will be a mean task. My life is now a mess; like a million threads entwined in each other. It's never easy living a life like this, but it's even harder when you got no one you can confide in - not because they are not worthy of knowing, but because you cant get it out of yourself.
What more, my academic life is also screwed; with nothing to show for the 2nd project in a row. I know what I want, but I'm not working towards it. So the thing I can do now is to hope for the best, and wish for another second chance.
Everyone around me feels so different now. People who I thought I knew can change in the blink of an eye, and when you think it cant get any lower, life strikes you where it hurts. Normal is not something I am hoping for - no one is normal here. What I want is at least to know what is going on.

Blogged at 12:11 am