YES! I'm back from a study marathon. Was supposed to survive for 40 hours, but only managed a 35 hour; nonetheless good and productive too. Special thanks to XX for tonning with me through one whole night. Passxx.
Frigging slept for 12 hours straight and now i'm so refreshed and ready for the sci practical in 3 hours. The only thing I'm worried about is my uncutted hair. But even if they dont let me in, I will still be able to score an A in my sci. No worries there.
My maths is still flopping around like a half-dead fish. Helphelphelphelp.
Why avoid risks in life just so that we can make it safely to death?
It's a few days left. Somehow, it's not all happiness that I'm leaving this school. The significant part of leaving this school is about the people, not the school itself.
Deepavali was a blast more than last year. Loads of fun, food and laughter. The 'celebration' lasted all the way to 8am the next day.
I've got a lot of things I want to do, and I can't wait to start on them, but my current situation is such that I can do none of them with my full commitment, without feeling the guilt of having not studied for my mock exams.
Tmr's a balanced day. There is an easy paper (English) and an extremely hard paper (F&N). Seriously, when I was given the option to drop F&N, I should have just taken it gladly. Good luck to me.
I love my computer more and more each day. Everyday, I am finding new things to do with it, new stuff to put on it, new songs to listen to, new websites to browse and dota. I know that once I press the 'Sign in' button of my WLM, there will be no chance that I will switch it off to study. It's proven over the past 3 days, when the earliest I slept was 4 or 5 in the morning. Blast the computer.
I always thought I could hate no one. I was proven wrong of course. When there are people like Kanye West, Lady Gaga, Black Eyed Peas and Ris Low, you'll find that it's hard not to hate people, especially people who are retarded (those aforementioned). I'm sure many will beg to differ, but those are my views, and they are substantiated in my own ways. Disclaimer: I am not anti-hermaproditism, nor am I anti-blacks.
Really, I'm more aware than you think I am. Before I was told, I already knew it. The site is inactive, but still it's on the top 3 of my browser, what do you think?
My father is an idealist. This I found out today. It's good to be an idealist. It's not good to be over the top, however. At a time of crisis, it's much better to set your foot down in stone, and be more practical.
I'm happy-sad. For no reason. Or maybe there is. I'm happy because I love the music I'm listening to. I'm sad because of life.
One in a lifetime chance, yet you are willing to forfeit it. Really, it's to your regret. I've looked back, with nostalgia, glad that one was made in memory of the precious past. A picture speaks a thousand words.
Fishes aplenty. I found a coelacanth, and all I know is, once lost, its gone forever. That, however, doesn't help in assuaging my passiveness. I know, all the dolphins in the world cannot make up for that one coelacanth. Oh the dilemma.
I want to buy a jigsaw puzzle and solve it all by myself. Ok, one is not enough. I want to buy jigsaw puzzles.
I had wanted to write about games, but didnt have the mood to write it out.
K so I'm going to start studying tmr. That is, if I can put myself into the mood. By the end of these 4 weeks of mock exams, it will show if I'm ready for war. For now, I'm confident for 2 of the 7 subjects I have. And fuck chinese. It's a fucking waste of my precious time.
Random BBQ and sleepover at Rosey's house. It was damn hilarious that we were playing Blind mice in the reading room of the condo, which was ridiculously small. There were 11 of us packed into a small room, which made for pure laughter and fun. 7 stayed for the sleepover, and Dahh fell first at like 2am only. I fell second, together with Navi, cause there was basically nothing to do except to watch 3 people playing dota. Left 9am the next day.
So that BBQ and sleepover fried my weekends, since I didnt do shit on sat before the event, and I've been using the comp ever since I woke up at 7pm Sunday. Now I'm left with monday to mug.
The average woman cannot keep a secret for longer than 47 hours, according to a new study.
Researchers found women will typically spill the beans to at least one other person in 47 hours and 15 minutes, reports the Daily Telegraph.
Depending on who the gossip is about, their boyfriend, husband, best friend or mother are the most likely to be the first person they tell.
The study of 3,000 women, aged between 18 and 65, also found that four out of ten admitted they were unable to keep a secret - no matter how personal or confidential.
It also found that alcohol usually gives us a helping hand to blurt out secrets with more than half admitting a glass or two of wine could prompt them to dish the dirt.
Michael Cox, UK Director of Wines of Chile, which commissioned the research to mark Chile's National Day, said: "It's official - women can't keep secrets.
"We were really keen to find out with this survey how many secrets people are told. What we didn't bank on was how quickly these are passed on by those we confide in.
"No matter how precious the piece of information, it's often out in the public domain within 48 hours. That means every single Brit who has confided in a friend should be worried because they don't know where their secret is heading."
Intimate issues, the true cost of purchases and affairs emerged top of the secret-keeping list, with girls most likely to share a secret chatting face-to-face, on the phone or via a text message.
Fortunately for some though, more than a quarter said they forgot what they were told the following day.
I just cant seem to let go, nor can I seem to get myself into it.
It's the last stretch now. Surely, I must gear up, for the impending trials before me. I have the foundation for most but Chinese and maths, which are what I predict will fail. If that happens, the most that will happen to me will be that I choose another course instead of HRM. It will be a pity, but that's as a last resort which I hope I dont have to turn to.
You are quiet, skillful and reserved. You don’t mince words. When you finally speak, it is to let people know exactly where you stand.
You are not bound by policy or standard convention, rather your mind is open to every possibility and you excel at finding novel approaches to solving problems because of this.
You are likely to adopt a hobby involving mastery of a tool, such as fishing or hunting, and since you have a special talent for mastering tools you are likely to achieve the highest level of skill in your field.
You are a master of the tools of your trade and an excellent craftsman. Better than most, you know exactly how to use tools for maximum advantage. You enjoy work where you can visually see your results when the project is complete, not matter how simple or complex.
You are not interested in small talk, and actually may speak very little in general when compared to other people. Because you are not very expressive, some people think of you as a loner, and teachers may have mistakenly labeled you as “dyslexic” when you actually were born with an inclination for communicating through actions rather than words. You learn by doing, rather than by hearing, seeing or reading.
Standard grade school was not intended for students like you, and you probably found it incredibly tedious and boring. You were designed to use your hands and mind to master tools which other people cannot. When introduced to new tools, including weapons, your skill develops faster and further, and you speak more technically about it than other’s could even with more time and practice.
You feel most comfortable when other people don’t know exactly what to expect from you. This leaves your options open to take whatever action you’d like without it being particularly shocking to anyone. In fact, even those close to you never know whether you’ll respond to something with instant enthusiasm or reserved thought.
You particularly enjoy unexpectedly stepping up to tackle a mechanical or instrument problem and then solving it with ease, although you’ll steer clear if the problem involves people or attitudes. If you absolutely must refer to the directions then you will read only the part which specifically applies to the problem at hand. You like work which has a definite end, a completion point, rather than “research” or “administration” which could continue on forever.
You are observant and will watch your environment, collecting data, constantly. This makes you especially valuable in an emergency because you are the most likely to have spotted things going wrong and know the source of problems before anyone else.
You don’t waste energy on creating plans which might not work out anyway. You prefer to face each day anew and tackle problems as they arise. You rely on yourself and trust common sense to get things done in nearly all circumstances.
As a parent you do not feel the need to impose yourself or your standards on your children the way others do. In your eyes your children are individuals and you will respond to each of them according to their situations at any given time. Your spouse and your children know that you will give them the freedom and space they need to be their own person and you expect the same treatment in return.
You may attend a big party or social family function, but without a doubt you prefer the company of a few close friends and the tool of your hobby, be it a fishing pole or a guitar.
Some quiz which I did out of boredom. Kind of reflects what I am. I like the part on school. Fuck school.
Ok, so I attended a motivational workshop yesterday. Useful, but only slightly. The coach said '1 month of life is better than your future no life'. It sure is true, but I can't put down my life now, even if it is only 1 month - or should I say, since there is only 1 month left.
I just hope, this year will not turn out like the last.
My priorities are screwed. They are as follow: (By descending order of importance) 1. Graduation video (60% done) 2. Clan fml header & footer (0% done) 3. Photoshop (0.1% accomplished) 4. Finish sampling all the songs I have on hand - 1.2 gb (10% done) 5. English (Thesaurusing) (0% done) 6. O levels Revision (5% done) 7. The rest
If you really want to do something, you will find a way. If you don’t, you will find an excuse.
I will have to finish everything on top first, excluding photoshop and the thesaurus of course, before I can really start on my revision, and that's to say IF there are no further commitments coming my way. GLHF off to dota.
It feels good to be more open. I think today was the first day I ever initiated a "Goodnight" to my neighbour-of-another-floor. It, of course, doesn't stop there. I also happened to see my neightbour-of-the-same-floor. I think I would usually avoid greeting or looking at my neighbours. It feels better to start off or end off another person's day with a greeting. I love that.
The graduation video is undergoing rapid progress. A lot of hard work and repetition are involved, but when it's flashed on the screen, I know it will be worth all the effort; because I've done so before. It may not necessarily be the best, but it sure will be the most entertaining.
Edited this out of fun and a little bit of inspiration from a website.
This. Something which I wanted to do a few months ago, but my previous computer couldnt support the huge amount of text needed, so I had to drop that. Now, the result speaks for itself doesnt it? p.s Helvetica is a damn nice font.
I have been playing for the past 4 days, which is a waste of time undoubtedly. I should get the video over and done with. It is kind of giving me an excuse to get on the comp.
Ok something on the physic re-prelim. It was expectedly easier, but unexpectedly short. I took 1 hour and 5 mins to finish both Mcq and paper 2. To think my request for early dismissal was approved too.
Now now, it's the holidays, but it's not the time to let up yet. So i guess my physics and most other subjs are covered for now, which leaves maths in the dust. My maths teacher now keeps saying that the things are very straightforward, but it does not apply to everyone. If you dont have a fucking proper foundation like me, things can be tricky indeed.
A repertoire of skills is very important, for it will last you through your life. But it's kind of depressing to see that there are professionals, many of them mind you, who peddle their trade everywhere, which makes the market damn saturated, i.e photoshop professionals who have their own sites and everything.
Right now, I am only at the bottom of the mountain. When I look up, I see a steep face of the mountain, with stepping stones, but few and far between.
Forget it. I'll just take it as if I said nth. I'd rather end it quick than to let it drag on. A brand new chapter will begin, aft the demise of the last. Freedom ensues once again, with no restrictions whatsoever. Maybe I should just channel all my efforts towards my ailing studies. It can be a new avenue to re-assess my ideals. No more fretting over trivial stuffs.
Fatigue is overwhelming, due to burning too much midnight oil, not to do impt stuffs, but to game. I was like on the comp for more than 36hrs straight, with breaks of cos. And I only had one hour of sleep, resulting in brain lag. Nonetheless, I still dont feel like going to sleep, maybe until late tonight. I just hope I dont drop dead in front of the comp, aft an intensive period of staring at pixels. And I still have to worry about SS and my F&N prac. Need to sleep. Soon.
Over the past few days, I have come to realise that the internet, or more specifically, games, have a lot of retards lurking under the cloak of anonymity, thinking that it will mask their epic level of stupidity as well. Sadly, no it doesn't. Now go cry to your mama. I wonder how retards come about. Their lack of maturity and, usually, poor english tend to make me laugh my arse off. My class has quite a few too, but I wouldn't name them for fear of hurting their feelings. So I'll just keep it to myself and enjoy a show of klutz.
GG. I think I got a sore throat. Guess it came from eating too much today. Ahh, it sucks to have a feeling that something is lodged in your throat and the stupid thing is that you cant force it down or up. I shall break my personal record of drinking 5 glasses of water.
Man, my F&N coursework is still stuck at decision making. And I have no intention of doing it atm. Laziness is sure hard to kick off. Persistent lil twerp. And it's time to get my ingredients for my prac soon. Hope it doesn't turn out to be a complete fiasco. Oh, and there's also SS to worry about. Damn.
Today was rather iffy. Went to sch for just 1 1/2 hr but due to the SGC, I stayed back till 4+. And when we(me, Jason, Jonathan) went to hand in the self-assessment form, I noticed every class's tray is empty. How conscientious of us. At least I got 1 less burden to worry about.
It has been a long time since I last used Pshop. Shall do some works with it soon. And I was reminded of my CCA's promotion vid. How timely. I shall display 'em on sunday I guess.
Recently, there seems to have an influx of bloggers into the blogosphere. Welcome and have a nice day.
There is a void in my heart. And it's increasing in volume every moment.
My english standard is starting to suck. However much I try to improve, it doesn't seem to get any better. With life being so pragmatic, marks are all that matters. But it cant do any shit but band us into noobs and pros. There is no in-between. If you pass, good for you, fail and go to hell. That's how it is. And I hate it. Sometimes, marks dont tell the whole story. They cant tell you how adept you are at a particular thing. Nor can it prove how much you truly suck at it. It just proves those with or without lifes, studying all day, just to get some blardy numbers on a piece of paper. But there's no winning the system. So, if you cant beat 'em, join 'em. But it will be a reluctant affair.
Rather bemused now, by some interesting news today. But it has got absolutely nth to do with the China earthquake, wherever and whatever it is.
"...the sign in the bus says no smoking, no eating, no littering, but where does it say no talking on the phone?" But talking too loudly is not acceptable, at least to me. So the victim, a China national, got bashed up. No, I am not siding with the perpetrator because I dislike ppl from China, which I dont deny, but becos I felt it was a rational reason to get violent. I noticed China men, most, have loud voices, which makes up part of the reason why I dislike them.
Apparently, some Singaporean company, (Vuestar Technologies) is demanding compensation from websites violating its patented "technology", which coincidentally only sites with a predominant Singaporean audience were targeted. And it's all for putting an image which links to the site's contact information. How ludicrous. I think they are just trying to earn a quick buck from unsuspecting victims. I find it so hilarious. Something that is so common is being claimed to be patented and to the best of my knowledge, I have never seen this company, if you call it one, before. Good luck to it, in collecting the money it was denied of. Hah.
Lmao, this is one funny guy. He is defending against a suit from PM Lee and MM Lee. As I read the report, it was written that his questions were largely irrelevant and without substance. I wouldn't mind going for a comedy show ft. him if I had the time.
I wonder when I will get dengue, at the rate I am being bitten by the mozzies. Maybe my blood is too alluring to resist. But I'd rather get an illness that kills me straight, rather than one that induces a slow, painful death. Speaking of deaths, the earthquake in China didn't make me flinch, nor did I sense any scintilla of pity or indignance in me. Reckon it was because of my aversion to China or that I just cant be bothered.
*A change of skin due to difficulty in navigation. Cant find a btr skin -.-*
Same script, different cast. I see the same things that I had fun over when I was younger, the jubilance and exult of those activities, water spraying, catching, hopscotch, blah blah blah, those days were fun, albeit short. How much life have changed, to the extent that good friends in pri sch ends up as Hi-Bye friends on the streets. Perhaps cos i reneged on my promise that I would go back to pri sch every Teacher's day, only to do something else at the last min. If only something can be done to make up for all the lost time. 2 songs which brings back all the memories and tears.
Graduation-Vitamin C
That's What Friends Are For-Dionne Warwick
And the days of hell shall descend upon us soon, when it is supposed to be a holiday, we have to burn our brains out for half of it, and revise for the other half. I am not exactly looking forward to it, but I would gladly let it pass, for the sake of the final hurdle. Still cant find the sense of urgency in me yet, even at such a crucial time, when the first paper, for most, will be taken in 2 days time. But I feel quite assured that I will pass it, and hopefully clinch a B4.
Good luck to everyone taking the paper. May luck be with you. And me.
Fuck procrastination. I mean it. It's going straight to the bin aft this post. Let the unfinished be finished; undone done; untold told. Today is the day, for me to turn onto the path of enlightenment. Fuck all those who tries to stop me, including those games that I have been playing. At least for now.
*I need to know if my blog is slow-loading. If proved positive, I will have to change a skin.*
So, all those things that I have to do (not in any order) includes: 1) IT Club promotion vid 2) English files and hmwk 3) 4/2 class tee design (I know I'm not from 4/2 but I was asked for a favour from zac.) 4) SS file 5) NYAA 6) Chinese revision*********************** 7) Buy sweets for tmr
That looks like a rather long list eh?
The new "special" group for "special" ppl is imho not gonna work out. When I sat down in class, I had planned to do the mock paper seriously. Just as I started, I was asked to go to the CO rm, whr I am supposed to "study" in a more "conducive" environment. Other than air-con, a teacher(not that he is incompetent), mostly ppl of my calibre, and a different scenery, it's more or less the same. But I totally lost my mood thr. Endured thru 3 hrs of hellish boredom. I would rather study with frens or solo, with the former being a btr choice. If only they would just leave us, or at least me, to our own devices.
I'm feeling real confused right now. It's as if nth is fathomable the more I think of it. Almost as tho there is an invisible barrier separating me from the world. I cant help but feel that it's all a part of life which I have to take it down. And I cant seem to do it.
Your mere presence brings me joy, it just seems to be like that. But when you're gone, it just turns black and white. The more I think, the more perplexed I get. But I cant do anything but keep it all to myself. But it wouldn't stay that way for long. This paradox is driving me nuts.
Rewind back to sec three. All slack and play. Those days were happy. Probably the happiest. Just that I missed out alot cos I was immature then. Regrets are all but regrets. Cant do anything to get back to that time. Can only hope for the best. Seems so helpless.
I need an impetus to get another impetus. A small one will do to start the ball rolling. But there are many factors pushing me back. But I dont care. As long as I get the courage I need, to hell with all other things. It will all end soon... be it good or bad.
