Paroxysms of feelings.
I'm feeling real confused right now. It's as if nth is fathomable the more I think of it. Almost as tho there is an invisible barrier separating me from the world. I cant help but feel that it's all a part of life which I have to take it down. And I cant seem to do it.
Your mere presence brings me joy, it just seems to be like that. But when you're gone, it just turns black and white. The more I think, the more perplexed I get. But I cant do anything but keep it all to myself. But it wouldn't stay that way for long. This paradox is driving me nuts.
Rewind back to sec three. All slack and play. Those days were happy. Probably the happiest. Just that I missed out alot cos I was immature then. Regrets are all but regrets. Cant do anything to get back to that time. Can only hope for the best. Seems so helpless.
I need an impetus to get another impetus. A small one will do to start the ball rolling. But there are many factors pushing me back. But I dont care. As long as I get the courage I need, to hell with all other things. It will all end soon... be it good or bad.
Angelic.Labels: Life, Personal, Random
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